I do wholeheartedly agree with
@Kieron here. If that isn't your best quality then I... well, you must be an absolute star at maps (you are IMO). If you miss self-confidence, which I do at some points, then take a break, then usually for me the next day I have a very strong determination and do things exceeding my expectations of them. But please do take time in your map, keep your personal life your first priority, that's what I've been doing explaining lack of repaints. We can wait, your life can't.
Hope all is better soon,
Luke